To the YouTube!

I got caught up in the internet last night.  YouTube to be specific.  As my surgery date countdown decreases in numbers  the amount of time thinking about it increases.  I started watching videos of people preparing for and recovering from the same surgery I will be having.  What I find interesting (yet not a surprise) is how every person has a different experience.  Some experience the worst pain ever -"worse than child birth", while some stop taking the pain medication two days after and start taking over the counter stuff.  I tend to think I have a high pain tolerance and want to believe that my recovery will be less painful than most.....BUT, I am preparing for the worst. The interesting part is that my tolerance to prescription pain medication is very low.  So I'm sure what ever they give me will keep me in a daze!

I watched some pretty good video's last night.  I refuse to watch actual footage of a surgery.  It reminds me of when I prepare for a half marathon.  I never look at the course elevation/map.  I want to physically and mentally prepare for the race, but actually seeing what I am in for scares the crap out of me! Same applies with this surgery...I don't want to see what's going to happen.  I want to go to sleep and wake up with it done!

Everyone has been super supportive so far.  All of my friends have been asking about how I am feeling and offering help post-op.  As hard as it is for me to accept help...the one consistent message I have read and watching about recovery is to let others help you.  So - consider this an open acceptance of any help my friends want to give and a HUGE thank you in advance.

The fact that my friends came together and donated almost $2,000 to help fund this life changing event is a reflection of the amazing people that surround me.  Words cannot explain my gratitude.  Emotions can't show how thankful I am.  I am truly blessed.

27 Days until surgery!